Reality sets in
I have been so good about keeping a positive attitude and today it all fell apart. I can’t seem to find the right mix of things to give me a good night’s sleep. I want to be off painkillers but I think I will have to take them at night so I don’t have to wake Brian up. On top of that, the back brace is killing me and I can’t stay in it for more than 2-3 hours at a time. All I can think about is that I’ve only had it for 1 week now and, according to the doctor, I have 11 more to go!!! I don’t know if I can cope with that. At some point, I will need to be able to shower without it or sit for short periods without it. I don’t know how I will function if that’s not the case. It’s so distracting that I have a hard time concentrating on work while I’m wearing it. The only positive thought that I have right now is that my Orhto might ok me for PT on my leg at my appointment on Monday. I don’t know what I’ll do if he doesn’t.