The View from 58-inches High

Now that it’s officially February, I suppose it’s safe to talk about my new year’s resolutions. Committing to something for a whole year is a little overwhelming so let’s just call them goals. I’m going to take a quick moment here to reflect on last year’s resolutions.

1. Walk the dogs at least twice a week – I stopped doing this after Fozzy was diagnosed with cancer in January. Sadly I only put this on the list because I noticed Fozzy favoring one leg and thought it was because his hips were getting bad. This resolution was part of my plan to rehab him.
2. Work less than 45 hours a week – Looking back, this goal was not aggressive enough. I worked about 43-hours a week and I was over worked. The plan should be 40-hours on average and I should be taking my comp time where it’s owed.
3. Have my hardware removed – Nope! I did finally get the cyst removed from my foot though.
4. Go paperless – I mostly achieved this. We still get a ton of paper mail and I have not been great about scanning it all but I’m getting there.

So what’s in store for this year? This should be the point where I admit that I am stretched too thin and talk about paring things back to focus on a few things I enjoy; but it’s not. If anything I want to take on more this year but be smarter about it.

1. Cycling – I want to race my bike and be a competitor this year. I want to love it instead of feeling tentative and nervous. I want to get enough sleep that I don’t feel too dead to do my workouts. I want to cat up but we’ll see if that’s really in the cards. I also want to win a driveway or two.
2. Work – I seem to be such a turning point in my career. I should be more ambitious than I am but all I really want is some balance here. I want to do well and be recognized for my work. That goal is not very SMART at all.
3. Family – I want to feel close to Callie. She is no Fozzy but I still feel like there is a relationship waiting to bloom. I want to spend more time with Brian but I also feel like we’re in a really good place.
4. Crafting – I really need this to happen again. I don’t think I made anything this year except my Christmas cards. The craft room was kind of off limits for the 5-months Jen lived with us so I just didn’t craft much.

This year I feel change is in the air. I can’t say how or when but I’m exhausted by certain facets of my life and I know I need change. I think that much of this comes down to my inability to be close to people. I have acquaintances but I don’t really have friends. Being a part of social groups I know I don’t fit into is incredibly difficult.