Another year, same old fear
Well here I sit, the day before my first race of the season. Last year, this was early as I opted to skip New Braunfels this year because of my trip to Duabi. Every year, I spend days trying to psych myself up.  Every year I struggle with the motivation to do this all over again and every year I love it. This year I’m even more nervous knowing I’ll be racing against pro’s and semi-pro’s. I just need to keep reminding myself that it’s not about how I do, it’s about the team and we have some very strong women contending.
Also, I’m finally getting promoted to manager on Tuesday. You’d think that I’d be really nervous about this but I’m really more nervous that it means I cannot crash! There’s an email and a meeting and the whole thing lined up for Tuesday and I have to be there. This year has started out badly for crashes. It seems like I go through this every year and every year I question how my teammates and friends can be so excited about lining up for the opportunity to end up in an ambulance. I tell myself that crashes are really rare, and not usually bad. But then something happens like Mineral Wells where 4-women get air-lifted out.
So here’s to being brave and taking risks for something that I love that makes me happy. Here’s hoping I don’t regret this decision tomorrow.