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Moving Forward on a New Bike
Today was really daunting. The only upside to the day was that I did my last physical therapy session until my follow-u pin 4-weeks when I will likely graduate. Things still aren’t perfect though and I know I have alot of work to do on my own. Even as my therapist was telling me how great I was doing I kept thinking that she didn’t know what I was capable of before the accident.
The sun came out today for the first time in eight days. As I was driving home, I was thinking about how I would actually ride my bike tomorrow; on open roads. I’m not afraid of riding in traffic but I am a little afraid to go out on my own again. I don’t think it’s because I’m afraid of getting hit (though I’d be naive if I thought those feelings weren’t there). I feel like I just afraid it won’t be the same. That I won’t be fast and I won’t love it. That I’ll find something wrong with my bike. There are a million what ifs and I’m afraid of all of them right now. I’m afraid of hurting myself or not being able to make it home. I’m afraid because I just don’t know.